So...dieting...yeah...it's great. (yes, sarcasm...) You know how people say you should eat to live and not live to eat, well I believe the opposite. I cook for people I love because I want to show them that I do. Words are awesome, but a bacon egg and cheese sandwich for breakfast shows you! :) I know, I could probably find all matter of other things that show this...but I'm GOOD at it. I love to cook and see people scrape their plates! So now how do I do that in the healthiest way possible....? I know, there are plenty of healthy recipes and things you can cut back on. But please, you know that a LOT of the time it does taste different! So how did I come to decide that I need to eat healthy and the whole diet thing. I'm getting hitched! I love the fact that I am and I'm excited about it. I don't wanna look back several years from now and say...sheeeessshhh WHAT SIZE IS THAT DRESS!! I know my soon to be hubby loves me and wants me..I mean he did put a ring on my finger when I was this size...but that doesn't mean I want to be this size! Losing weight has made me feel better, and look at things a little different. It's hard! I'm full, I don't NEED to eat anymore...but dang, that chocolate chip cookie, or cake, or cheese, or chili dog looks freaking DELICIOUS!! So I try to make myself think of eating something else. Ok, so it's an apple..YAH! meh, yeah it was good...but was it really what I wanted..not so much! I have lost 16 pounds and I love that, but I keep thinking...do I really have to eat like this the rest of my life? hmmmmmm :( I know, I need to change my thinking about how I eat...but how? Yes you can tell me how I'm hurting my body by eating that fake stuff, and I'm going to have to worry about health problems if I gain a lot more weight...but STILL!!! You know....
So thinking about this I have to tell you something.....
The other day I was thinking about honeymoon ^-^!!! Well I picture me laying around doing NOTHING for several days....only how I'm picturing myself...yeah not how I look in the mirror. I see oversize one-shoulder sweater with undies and cute bra. Nice to lay around and read in right? Only what I'm picturing is about 3 sizes too small for me right now and the ta-ta's are a lot firmer looking...well nothing I can do about that...lol! (two kids...breastfeeding...) BUT...the size of that sweatshirt...maybe there is something I can do! So ww it is...been doing good so far! It has been rough and let me say that PMS is NOT helping right now! So backsliding is happening! I keep rationalizing and rationalizing...but I don't think that will keep the lb's off....
wish me luck..I'm gonna need it!
